“Only if I could say…”

Just when i began to write, the door of my room knocked......the noise startled the aroused inclination of my thoughts , i was moved by the noise..Loosing dimensions of my thoughts and waving away my writing pad, i stepped towards the wooden rectangular door, which was still from ever;..the noise was catching up pace, with the deception of anxiety, anguish , fear and cluster of thoughts  i was moving with all my force towards the source of noise, the more the distance lapsed more was my heart thumping! I knew for sure that something was wrong, something terrible has happened..my last steps were the most difficult ones...my hand approached the rusted knob which gave the feel of never ending  pain ..my twisted wrist swirled the rusty knob making a way between the other unseen end..the door moved towards me revealing more of the unseen sight....

 My head was down my body trembling, my heart beating to the most, frowning gestures grew more! my head rising up , my eyes opening to the feel the sight...deep thoughts hitting my head; i collected the courage to finally look up !!

To my astonishment and surprise i lost control , my sight went blank, i felt like deep wounds in my body..the very time a hard gush of wind made its way through the door making me feeble and cold....then ! when i was about to loose the balance, your hand drifted through the door in to my jersey sweaters holding me with full force..that glimpse! electrified the whole system of mine..your eyes intruded through the cornea of my vision and then ........... a twinkle of tear seeped through the walls of my eye and i closed my eyes and waved back to the journey of misery and regrets!..when i lived with my ego!......

Jolting back from the past i raised the index finger to the wooden table where lied the paper on which i was about to write .....

" Only if i could say you a sorry ...will you come back"